SEASON 4 EPISODE 7: THE CONVICTION

I went for a job interview yesterday afternoon for a dispute resolution paralegal in an international law firm based in Millenia Tower in the City. The circumstances that led to this interview are quite unique:

(1) I was never asked to see the recruiter for an interview- the one who put up the advertisement. This is different from the other recruiters who called me for an initial profiling session;

(2) all communication was done through email or telephone call; and

(3) interestingly, this position was not published on the law firm's careers page on their website.

One might what this has to do with the title of this episode. It has lots to do with the title and this is the link:

During the interview, I felt that I spoke with confidence and answered the questions with heartfelt sincerity. This confidence stems from an internal conviction that grew over time - the conviction that I am called to be a lawyer and that I will eventually qualify.

When all things seem to be gloomy, one's confidence and belief can be shaken. It was the same for me. This happened while I was in London where all my applications for training contracts and paralegal positions were unsuccessful. It was a dampener but despite all this, I stood up and completed the LPC successfully.

On my return home, I had the privilege of being an intern at an international law firm. During that period, I asked myself whether I was on the right track and wondered why is the route to becoming a solicitor so difficult. I wondered whether I should have done a general business degree or even be an accountant.

It was one night that I pulled out one of my journals which recorded some of the many circumstances that led me to pick up law. There were many circumstances that led me into the study of law, one of which was the exposure to law during my polytechnic days.

But, in one of my entries, I recorded that one of my lecturers informed me that the same law module will not be offered to subsequent batches of Business IT students because of a change of curriculum and the introduction of the cross-disciplinary module system. This document was a memory-jolting one!

I am unaware as to whether what my lecturer said really happened. But if it did, then the timing of everything could not be any better than this. If I had entered the course a year later, I would not be where I am right now. A year earlier, there will be no such course because I was the course's pioneer batch of graduates. Therefore, the feeling of been on the wrong track is purely academic because there is no alternate history for me! That means I am on the right track!

I even recalled that my heart was certain that I was to go ahead with my law studies, even though my then girlfriend discouraged me from doing so. In the process, I made a few sacrifices, one of which was to take myself out of the polytechnic Choir which I was quite active then. I also ended my relationship with her sometime then because of irreconciable differences.

So, putting all this together, I can say that my route to becoming a solicitor was a challenging one and it is through all this that have made me more capable to handle challenges. This is how I began my "speech" before the interviewers yesterday and I now await news from the recruiter.

I have been trained as a lawyer and even though the thought of doing business, finance or even accounting have crossed my mind, I have dismissed it because that is not what I am supposed to do.

My calling is indeed to be a lawyer and I look to the day where I will get my license to practice. I believe that even though nothing tangible seems to be emerging, the God of the Bible, the Creator of heaven and earth is working in the background and that we take heart that in all things, God will work for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose (Romans 8:28).

SOLI DEO GLORIA!

SEASON 4 EPISODE 6: THE TRANSIT

It has been two weeks since the end of my internship and since then, I have been sending out my CV to legal recruitment agencies for profiling, attending interviews and most importantly, enjoying the retreat from the hustle and bustle of the working life.

During this period, I was largely on my own, walking around my "haunts" on the island, sipping coffee at coffee joints with my latest toy - a 80GB iPod Classic - and book in hand. I have also ransacked my family's library of books for good theological classics to read and chew on.

I think it is appropriate to share some thoughts about a personal project of mine, which is to document my own thoguths on the Christian faith. The contents will largely be my own personal thoughts, but like all lawyers, I will look back on what others have said before (ie the great theologians of the past). I am also looking at incorporating philosophy - both Western and Eastern philosophy into this. It may cause some "disturbance in the force", but ultimately, I want to put forth my own case for the faith - like an advocate will do before he presents his case before the court of law.

Over the years, through all my experiences in life, there has been a growing desire to know the word "Christianity", a word that I have been indicating as my religion on application forms I have been filling up of late at those legal recruitment agencies. This seed was sown during the days with my ex-girlfriend many years ago. This is one of the many positive results of this failed relationship and it is this that I will always thank the LORD for. This seed germinated and grew during my law studies - especially in my final year where I had to do Jurisprudence (ie the philosophy of law) in order to graduate. It has been growing since then but the next significant point was when I was in London. My library of books which I built up in my own room during my nine months (and the occasions where I led Bible Study over there) caused much exponential growth. Now back in Singapore, all this growth culminates (in some sense) in this life-long project of mine and what better time for the launch than in this transitory period, while waiting for my next flight in the journey of life.

But, I don't think I can do this alone. As it is a life-long project, I am praying for the LORD to provide the appropriate companion to come alongside me to assist, guide and inspire.

I guess this can keep my mind occupied during this transitory period. I am praying this period will not be too long and that I can be gainfully employed again! I have been "out of action" for 2 weeks now and am eager to return to the working world. How long, O LORD do I have to wait?

SEASON 4 EPISODE 5: WHAT AN ADVENTURE!

Today marks the end of my four-week internship at the Singapore office of an international law firm. Well, I leave that place with fond memories and I believe I have thorougly enjoyed myself. The people, the tasks given and the exposure, these will be remembered.

While there's no opening for either an extension or a permanent position, I am not disappointed because I know that this internship will add some weight and "colour" to my CV. I can say that I have worked in an international law firm, experienced the "high-end" work that they do and confirm my position that I am on the right track.

During this internship, I have asked myself why I chose to be a lawyer and why this path to be one. What if I had chosen to do a general business degree and find a comfortable job. Well, in one of my journal entries written during the days of my internship and all that, I was informed by my liaision officer for my SIP that the legal module that I took (which sparked off the interest in law) will not be a compulsory module for the subsequent batches on the Business IT course. This is because of the change in the structure of curriculum.

If this really happened, then I can only say that if I had entered the course later, I would not be where I am now. Hence, there is no alternate history for me and this shows that I am on the right track. So, this gives me the confidence to continue threading on this journey to be a lawyer.

Thanks be to God for the experience and all that has happened. I now take a back seat, scan the field for the next opportunity and take it - even if it is to return to London to work.

This episode has been an adventure and I come out of it happy, at peace and confident.